So, I have been working through out most of my 28th year alive doing the same thing every day. Every day I thought that that was what I wanted.
Yet the feeling that 'something wasn't right' with how I was feeling didn't really strike until a few weeks ago. And by 'strike' I mean 'freaking the hell out to my parents & sister'. My sister was helpful enough to point out that on my last trip to visit her i had done something similar yet more calm.
So, what dragged this to the surface? School.
As in; I am still attending college part time. The math says that even if I could handle 2 night classes a week every semester, while also taking an extra class during the summer, I will not get my Associates Degree for another 6 years. That's right, it would take me 6 years to get a 2 year degree. To give this a little more weight I started college back in 2000.
I do know the biggest mistake i ever made was not actively looking for a job when I tried to move back to California. I had never gotten a job, didn't know how to go about it and worst of all I didn't have a license at the time. Two weeks into living out there I realized I was in over my head. It took me another two weeks to get on a plane home. (Don't fly stand-by.) I was very, very lucky to have such a great friend. not only put up with this frustrating situation but is still friends with me today.
The second biggest mistake I ever made was not getting a student loan. At the time my mom had total control over my finances so I trusted her. she said I would be in debt forever and that was that. (She claims none of this happened.) Thus why I have been working full time to pay as I go with school.
So, right now I am working in a job that might dissipate due to the economy and no one seems to want to hire a person with out a bachelors in my current field. My mom is working two jobs and my dad could retire in another 4 years. My sister is in NYC with her own predicament. This all leaves me on my own for the first time ever.
I am 28 and I am totally screwed.